Where There is a Will

As you all know the past 3 years I have let my hair grow out to it natural stress laiden grey hair. Many of you have had your opinions and comments on it and while I personally enjoyed not having to hassle with the dying of it, I must admitt the vain side of me missed how young I felt with it dyed. Many of you probably thought that I was forced into not dying it and that simply was not true, the fact was that my husband was one who claimed to not understand why women felt they needed to do that and he felt that he could and would love me just as much undyed as dyed, I believed him and trusted him and so I proceeded to grow it out, keep in mind everytime he would mention that he thought a woman looked nice I had to point out that there was a 99% chance that they dyed their hair. Well many times he has told me if I wanted to dye it that was fine, but he did not want to be the one to try and pick out a color. Well anyways this last week we got some movies in the mail from Feature Films for Families and there was this film called "Where there is a Will", well we watched it and the old lady in the film is the mother from "Happy Days" and she is looking rather old and haggerdly and is basically given up on life, until she is reunited with her grandson whom she has not seen since he was a child. Well she gets a new lease on life, has eye surgery, gets some hip clothes and dyes her hair and magically she becomes a new woman looking and acting 20 years younger. Well at the end of this touching movie my husband looks over at me, takes me in his arms and tells me he wants me to dye my hair and that he knows that it will make me feel better about myself! Not only that but he wants me to have it done at a Salon and he wants to come help pick out the color. So today we went to Mastercuts (where I get my haircut) and had my hair dyed professionally for the 2nd time in my life! It has been exciting to see how hard it is for my sweetie to keep his eyes off of me and I feel fantastic! So if I had Brent and Shayla's Monkey Meter right now I would have to give getting your hair dye a #5! Below is a picture taken a couple of weeks ago and one taken after the dye and cut! What do you all think?

Happy Birthday Logan!

Can you believe my Logan is 13 today? Where has the time gone? Happy Birthday Logan, hopefully one of your brothers will let you see this post! Logan has grown in so many ways in the last year, his voice has turned deep and he sounds like a man, he has grown like a foot and has passed me up and most importantly he has matured spiritually and intellectually in he role as Deacon Quoram President and in he grades in school. He is thoughtful of others and has a wonderful sense of humor and has brought much joy to our family! I will say it once again.....Happy Birthday dear Logan!

What it means to me to be a Mother

I was sitting there during Sacrament Meeting while they were giving talks about Motherhood thinking about what it means to me to be a Mom. I use to think that Mother's Day was kind of a depressing day, a day where all of the areas that you fell short in were pointed out and a reminder that you could never measure up, but recently in the past few years I have learned a greater lesson about Mother's Day and it has become more of a sacred day for me and for some odd reason I don't really feel like I don't measure up, but instead I just feel Extremely Blessed.

This is what I realized about Mother's Day (at least from a Mother's point of view), it is not a day to worship Mother's, but to find gratitude for not only having Mother's but for being Mother's, when I started thinking of all the reasons I am gratiful to be a mother (mostly my incredible kids), I started felling less sorry for myself and instead realized how incredibly Blessed I have been to be a Mother to the most wonderful children on earth. Over the years my children have taught me more about the Savior and my Heavenly Father then I could possibly learn on my own, and I don't just mean because I can relate more to him and how he loves me. I have had children who from a very young age taught me simple lessons of faith and trust in the Lord and while most children would use some of the things I have put them through as an excuse to turn away from God, they have been an example of true faith in God holding to the rod and setting an example of true believers. Now I realize that Heavenly Father had everything to do with placing these wonderful spirits in my home and because of that I would like to express my gratitude to him for Blessing me with the children that I have.

With that said, I will say I am not perfect and at times I find myself feeling sorry for myself for being so far away from them and not being able to spend as much time with them as I like and I ache for them in ways I never knew was possible, but I have been blessed with the time I do have with them and I know that they all love me and for this I am immensely grateful.

So for this Mother's Day I would like to pay a tribute to the reason I am a Mother, MY CHILDREN!!!!! I love you guys!

Humility!!

Okay so I recall a few months ago Brent blogging about learning to accept being wrong even when he felt like he was right or something along those lines, well I have to write about my own version, It all started out tonight at work, well for those of you who do not know Darin and I both work at the same job in a duplex, we work the graveyard shift and he works on one side of the duplex and I work the other. Well for the last year since I have worked here his side has had cable and mine has not, well the boys over here have been wanting to get it and since we have a new PC they were told that it would be looked into. Well one of the boys on the other side decided to hook this side up to the cable they have on their side and in the process found out that the cable that they are getting is pirated from the neighbors next door, so for the past couple of days we have had cable. The thing is Darin has had cable and has watched it to help get through the night for the past year and there was always the underlying thought that the cable was not being paid for legally, when the boy hooked it up over here, we let the landlord, the PC and the Regional Manager all know about the pirated cable and they never told us to unhook it. Well tonight happens to be one of my double shifts and I only got a couple hours of sleep before going to my shift this afternoon at 2pm, so I was counting on that cable to help keep me awake, anyways I started to watch cable right after we got done with scripture study and a couple of minutes into it the cable went out, then Darin comes to my side and says he unhooked it, keep in mind his side is not unhooked even though he says he is not going to watch it, not only was I upset because I am tired and planned on watching it, I was hurt because of the lack of thought towards me and when I voiced my displeasure alls he could say was he was just trying to do the right thing. Well I know deep down inside I am wrong, but I was fighting the natural man inside of me and I was really mad. I know that this is a tempral thing and not even important at that, so why am I letting it bother me? As I try to humble myself I realize that it is Satan trying his best to put a wedge in between my sweet husband and I because he does not like it when we are doing good things and gratefully some very good things are happening in our lives that he does not like. So with that said I shall go apologize to my husband and have sweet heart prayers which by the way I have put off because of my wickedness, thanks for letting me voice my frusterations with myself.